Nail Art

Finally, i'm getting better

i got fever for these last two days, but Thanks God, i'm healthy now :D

So, today i wake up, still feel not really good, but i try to do my normal routine. I take a bath and clean my room, eat, and then open my books try to do my thesis. And yay! My other supervisor for thesis Prof S has replied my email  (i got Prof. DK and Prof. S as my thesis supervisors). And he said: OK! 

Yahooo! Thanks God, it means i can continue to revise another chapter, finally there's a progress. So I believe that "it's always better to have progress slowly than nothing at all". So, if we find something seems difficult to be done, let's just try and try, give it shot and never give up, so one day, we never realize that we actually has obtained the accomplishment. :)

Um, I also do something to my nails. Yeah, actually i love to color my nails. I will show you some. But it's not good at all i think. 

this is the choco

  this is the natural

 the light red

the  sparkling black

this blue is a mess

this orange, i mix yellow and red

 this ocean blue

And tonight i did one more to my nails, I like it this one, how about you? :D

Yeah, i like this one :D
Not as much as i like my babe, he angry at me again, i don't know why. He said that he didn't wanna call because there a noisy voice when he called me. Then, today he called me and i didn't pick up, I said "i'm okay now, no need you to call". And I said, just call me if you need me, but i'll try not to call you, because you always have reasons to cancel my call, whether it's your job that make you tired or the noisy voice or whatever, so i don't wanna disturb you and don't bother.
You angry, you said that ypu don't wanna call me either. That's it. You end the conversation and left me hanging. Wew,,,(-,-)                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

I Love You When ...

I love you when you cuddle me and it ends with a soft kiss
I love you when you just from somewhere outside and as you enter the house saying "oh, i'm freezing" and hug me
I love you when i open my eyes in the middle of the night and find you're looking at my face, i ask "what are you doing" and you just smile answering "i've done this for hours and i never get bored"
I love you when you kiss me in the middle of my sleeping, i feel it but i don't wanna wake up
I love you when i'm mad and you hug me
I love you when i'm depressed or panic, you just stay there to calm me down
I love you when i'm crying and you kiss me
I love you when you blow my ear to wake me up
I love you when i open at midnight and find you next to me, sleeping peacely
I love you when you hold my hand suddenly in the middle of crowded
I love you when you kiss me and don't want it to end
I love you when you who always warm and lovely never really leave me, never really mad at me
I love you,,,

Today is Waiting

Oo,,,yeah,,,

So, this day along i'm waiting for two things, first the email from my supervisor and the second is my babe comment on her Ex wall post in FB.

Why am i doing that? Because i need my email to be replied so i can go forward on my thesis, i hope it's getting better and better, and about his Ex,,well,,that's complicated.

A couple months ago his Ex called him that she got engaged and will get married one year later. I really care about that, because my babe and I has been about 3 years in relationship but she is always between us, suddenly appear and we don't know how even my babe has change his phone number. That's bothering me a lot. 

I think that she has moved on so she tries to live with another man finally. But, yesterday, i checked my babe's FB and i found that she posted a sweet sentence:

 "it hurts when u have someone in your heart,but u cant have her in yours arms...cemungud2 [it's like chayo] **** [she called my babe with his nick name like when they were still in realtionship] :) wish u all d' best "

What??? 

I called him soon and said "let's make this for HER! because i'm sick of this". 

He said "just keep calm babe, i'm still yours, please trust me this time"

"It's not about i trust you, i trust you babe, but i don't trust her. Or you're still thinking about her feeling so you just let her always do the things like that. Do you even think about my feeling? I'm your girlfriend now! Remember? If both of you just let this happens any way, well,,,you guys just don't respect my position as your girlfriend, and you are too much hurting my feeling. You defend her feeling by hurting me. Who are your girlfriend actually?

"Okay, i'll remove her or i have to be angry at her first?"

"You said to her in her wall post that you don't want her anymore to come back in your life. Because you are with me now, you are serious with me, and you don't want always have a fight for the same problem again, her."

"Okay,,"

Okay?? And now what?? Are you such a coward?? FUCK YOU 

I'm back alive

wow, it's been like a long time and finally i can write again,,

so, yeah,,,my life is going on, good, well great,,,a lot of problem but great, that's the art of life. You have problems but hi! You're still alive and doing great :)

Okay, i'll tell you, guys...

A week ago, i had a little problem with my girls. It happened like this,,,

I didn't remember the day, but i woke up lately, it was about 10 a.m or 9 a.m. Then I tried to find the girls, which were my very best friends. I didn't find them.

I turned on my laptop and opened google, online news, twitter of course :D. I found in my timeline that the girls were having fun in SPA place and saloon, yeah place like that. I always have the problem with these girls, with the way their parents give money and the way the spend that money. I remembered that maybe two weeks ago, their parents just sold their land somewhere which was in expensive price. So, i knew that their family has a lot of money because of that. As information, these girls are sisters.

Then i tweeted something like " hi, i just bought a Gucci bag || Wow, nice. I saw your mom sold her ringg wedding yesterday" and also " hi, my boyfriend just bought me a diamond ring || Wow, i heard that his mom lost her money a lot"

I knew it, they would react of my tweet, so they tweeted back without mention me, because i didn't mention them too. it was like saying "someone get jealous that we are having fun" and "hi, we love our parents for giving me the money to have fun" and "someone felt really sick of us" something like that till 3 days they did that. I was like "what????"

I tried to answer them (still  #nomention) that, "hello, my tweets are not for you stupid people, my friends are not only you" but i thought that it didn't work.

Then, till now i just try to be normal with them, i mean, yeah we still say hello sometimes, but i'm personally decided not to be as closed as before.

Next thing was that, i got surprised!! Owh, Actually bad news. For the last months, i survive to finish my thesis for my master degree. I got a lot of revisions every time i brought my writing to my supervisor or my lecturer. So, i decided to have a rest time before i'm gonna write the next revision. And maybe three days ago, i went to campus for something i needed to take care, and i met my friend who had done her seminar and passed and congratulation!! She had just got her master.

O, My GOD! And what am i doing? A rest time???

After i got into my room, i just called my babe who was in his work, i was crying, told him what happened, how panic i was that i got left behind, because my other friends also told me that they were doing chapter 4 of their thesis, and me?? Chapter 1!! and it's still unfinished!!

My babe were just listening to me and i didn't know how he always did. He calmed me down, stopped my tears down, talked about something about my thesis, about how i shouldn't be so panic and just keep writing.

And yeah,,,here i am, now i'm waiting for my supervisor to give comments back for my revision that i sent him.

Yeah, sometimes we just need to take a deep breath, keep calm and start what we have to finish. I mean i love this life, sometimes it makes me really depressed, sad, happy, tearing, laughing, but it makes me stronger than. My friends, my story of life, my babe, even my supervisor,,,they give me a lot of things, things to always be learned.

And, how about you? I wish good luck too for yous life :)

The Process Of Broken Heart

I don't know, maybe when some relationships end up, first, it's very difficult for the girl to accept but it's fun for the guy. Then, after some times, maybe it takes different time for every girl, it can be days, months, or even years, she will decide that life must go on, she will be stronger, move on, and be different better girl from she was, she will live her life better, stronger, and of course greater.

And for the guys, when they think they can live happier as a single, they should think twice after some days, months, and years. They should realize how important their girls to help them in their life. So, have fun, enjoy your happier lonelier single life.